You Loved Me More!

Jeremiah31:3  (NIV)

The Lord appeared to us in the past,[ a] saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.

THIS PIECE WAS WRITTEN BY MY INCARCERATED PEN PAL ABOUT THE FATHER WHO RAISED HER. HE PASSED AWAY SEVERAL YEARS AGO. I HAVE BEEN WRITING TO Katie FOR OVER 4 YEARS AND i HAVE WATCHED HER GROW SPIRITUALLY! PLEASE PRAY FOR HER AS SHE STILL HAS SEVERAL YEARS LEFT. d

Different, it’s now so different.

Almost everything has changed.

But through it all I have to say that

the echo of your absence is what still remains.

I miss you when life hurts,

I miss you when I feel ok,

I miss you when I’m drowning in

all the things I meant to say.

I miss those days when you believed in me,

I only wish I believed in them then too.

If I had than maybe none of this would have happened.

Maybe this nightmare wouldn’t have come true.

I miss you when you were my world, and I your little girl.

Sometimes I could swear it was just yesterday

But I think upon the mess I made and how you’d have hurt,

So I think that maybe it’s better that you couldn’t stay.

These people, they say you are watching over me.

It sounds nice but I don’t think it’s true..

For what’s the meaning of ‘no tears in Heaven,’

if up there God doesn’t protect you?

I wish I could go back, do it all different.

I want to say I’m sorry, but I know God now holds you close.

I’m trying to trust Him the way you’d once taught me,

on these days when I need it the most.

The world’s so ugly and I’ve been selfish for so long,

so I won’t say that I wish you were here.

But I’m trying to re-learn everything you taught me,

while I hold your memory so near.

Next time I see you it’ll all be so different,

so much better than before.

Until then I’m rediscovering the person I can be,

all because You loved Me MORE!